why i hate jeremiah 29:11

today i came to the realization that i do not really believe God wants good things for my life.
i think God wants me to suffer.
like i hate flying and i do not want to die in a plane crash.
but i feel that because i don't want to die that way, well i will fly one day and that is how God will take my life just because i do not want to die that way.
i really just don't see how God wants me to be joyful in this life.
even though the Bible clearly speaks of joy in this life.
i just don't think i deserve any good thing.
and God promises good things, granted in Jeremiah 29:11, He was telling the Jews who were being exiled into slavery that this was for a good purpose.
taken out of context though, as is the hot thing these days, i just don't believe He really has good for my life.
i can believe it for other people's life.
just not mine.
maybe this is why i hate that verse so much and try to refute that it is still applicable today.

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For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NKJV)