FIRST ANNUAL DEDE FAMILY CHRISTMAS SALE

First  Annual Dede Family Christmas Sale

BOOKS - $5.00 Each
"Love Walked Among Us" Paul Miller
"5 Cities That Ruled The World" Douglas Wilson
"Father Hunger" Douglas Wilson
"Marvel Comics The Untold Story" Sean Howe
"Rid of My Disgrace" Justin S. Holcomb & Lindsay A. Holcomb

CDS - $3.00 Each (Used), $5.00 Each (New)
Switchfoot - Vice Verses
Switchfoot - Learning to Breathe
Switchfoot - New Way To Be Human
Switchfoot - Nothing is Sound
Lampmode Rec. - The Church Called & Collected
MXPX - Life In General
Comeback Kid - Wake The Dead
Ascend The Hill - Take The World, But Give Me Jesus (NEW)
Matisyahu - Youth
Sho Baraka - Lions & Liars
Sovereign Grace Music - Songs for the Cross Centered Life
Children 18:3 - Rain's 'A Comin'
Sovereign Grace Music - Come Weary Saints
Sovereign Grace Music - Together for the Gospel Live
Sovereign Grace Music - I Stand In Awe
Fee - We Shine
Covenant Life Church - How Sweet The Sound (NEW)
Great Awakening - Cities
Great Awakening - Songs In Secret
Jas Knight - The Psalter
Trip Lee - If They Only Knew
The Ambassador - The Chop Chop: From Milk to Meat

 COMIC BOOKS - Year in parenthesis indicates year first issue published
COMIC BOOKS - $1.00 Each
X-Men (2010) #7, 8, 9, 10, 16, 17, 18, 19
Amazing Spider-Man (1963) #397, 398, 407, 408, 634, 635, 636, 637, 658 (2nd printing), 659 (2nd printing), 660, 666, 667, 668, 676,  680, 681, 682, 683 (2nd printing), 684, 685, 686, 687
Indestructible Hulk (2013) #6, 7
Infinity (2013) #1 of 6
Avengers (2012) #1, 2, 3, 4, 7, 8, 9, 10, 14, 15, 16, 17. 19, 21, 22, 23
New Avengers (2013) #11

COMIC BOOKS - $2.00 Each
Superior Spider-Man (2013) #17, 18, 19
Amazing Spider-Man Learning to Crawl (2014) #1.1
Infinity (2013) #2 of 6, 3 of 6, 4 of 6, 5 of 6, 6 of 6

COMIC BOOKS - $4.00 Each
Amazing Spider-Man (1963) #275, 276, 277, 278



 GRAPHICS NOVELS - $8.00 Each
Spider-Man: Hobgoblin Lives
Fantastic Four By Waid & Wieringo Book #2
The Amazing Spider-Man Revelations

GRAPHIC NOVELS - $10.00 Each
Fantastic Four Visionaries by John Byrne Volume #4
Spider-Man/Mary Jane: ... You Just Hit The Jackpot

GRAPHIC NOVELS - $15.00 Each
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Clone Saga Epic Book #5
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #1
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #2
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #3
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #4
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #5
Amazing Spider-Man The Complete Ben Reilly Epic Book #6
The Thanos Imperative (Hardcover)
Spider-Man The Real Clone Saga (Hardcover)

if God let me judge my salvation, i'd send myself to...

i want that perfect walk
always doing what is right
always honoring Christ
its impossible
i always fall short
i struggle with that unforgiveness
God never said we had to forgive ourselves; so when i fail, there's nothing but unforgiveness for myself
no such thing as grace for myself.

i really don't apply this perfectionism to any other area of my life.
i slack at work, in my friendships, and other things i try my hand at.
but i want that perfect walk.
how else will He let me in?
it's all based on His grace, but i still can't shake that perfectionism.
i live like the law still applies. maybe i should be a messianic jew.
sacrifice doesnt get me into heaven but i still try.
religiously waking up to have devotion doesnt get me into heaven.
sinless streaking doesnt get me into heaven.
perfectionism doesnt get me into heaven.

nothing in my life is perfect.
my health is shaky, physically emotionally mentally.
everyone in my family is broken and we all have crappy relationships with our siblings.
i fail so much because i set up high standards for myself.
eventually you get sick of failure and you want to succeed. every time.
brokenness and failure from not being perfect! amen, eh?

how can you unlearn that which is ingrained into your being?
"perfection" on my own is that failure walk.
failure but relying on His grace is that perfect walk.

new thoughts on jeremiah 29:11

so today i called my two favorite pastors, pastors chuck smith and don stewart on pastor's perspective (888-564-6173) to ask them about jeremiah 29:11. they sort of refuted my argument that it no longer applies since God spoke it to Israelites being exiled into slavery.

pastor chuck (!!!), my boy, answered that its the basic principle - that God has good thoughts towards us - still applies. don stewart said that God is our lawyer, He defends us, loves us, has good thoughts towards us, and Jesus is our Good Shepherd. i definitely agree with them.

so i guess now i will tryyyy to believe that God wants good for my life.

now, if i could just wrap my heart around the truth that God loves me, i'd be alllllll set...

emilio "chick" dede

today is sort of a checkpoint in my life.

on november 17, 1996 my grandfather died.

his name was emilio but for some strange reason, he was nicknamed "chick".

anyways my mother's father and mother both died before i was born.

my father's mother died 3 months after i was born, so i do not remember her.

but the only grandparent i remember is chick.

chick almost died of the scarlet fever as an infant.
they had an infant casket picked out for him.
he lived to be 91 years old.

he lived in brooklyn, in the house my great-grandfather built upon immigrating from italy.

my dad grew up in that house too.

i know that he was a huge brooklyn dodgers fan and a huge new york (football) giants fan.

most of my childhood, he was somewhat heartbroken and senile.

his wife of like 40 years had died right after i was born.

he kind of lost it after that.

my favorite chick story happened before i was born.
he used to feed neighborhood cats.
like 20 of them.
my grandmother was ready to leave him because he loved the cats so much.
so my parents got all 20 cats into the trunk of their car.
and left the cats somewhere.
but my grandmother was so mad because my grandfather would take care of all the cats by feeding them.
and if the cats were sick, he would put... vick's vapor rub on their throats.
classic.

i remember he stayed over for one christmas and we all woke up because something was burning in the middle of the night. apparently, he was cold so he was heating up his underwear in the stove. (at this point though he was like in his late 80s.)

so it's been 12 years since someone i really loved or cared about died.
actually scratch that.
i was so pressed about going on a date with my girlfriend in 7th grade that i was pissed my grandfather's death ruined that.
and i wasn't upset that he died.
until...
until the pallbearers were carrying him out of the church and i broke down uncontrollably.
could. not. stop. crying.

i was 12 when he died.
12 years have past.
i'm 24 now.

"chick" is still the greatest nickname ever.

why i hate jeremiah 29:11

today i came to the realization that i do not really believe God wants good things for my life.
i think God wants me to suffer.
like i hate flying and i do not want to die in a plane crash.
but i feel that because i don't want to die that way, well i will fly one day and that is how God will take my life just because i do not want to die that way.
i really just don't see how God wants me to be joyful in this life.
even though the Bible clearly speaks of joy in this life.
i just don't think i deserve any good thing.
and God promises good things, granted in Jeremiah 29:11, He was telling the Jews who were being exiled into slavery that this was for a good purpose.
taken out of context though, as is the hot thing these days, i just don't believe He really has good for my life.
i can believe it for other people's life.
just not mine.
maybe this is why i hate that verse so much and try to refute that it is still applicable today.

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For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NKJV)